Disclaimer

I should first be as clear as possible. I am surely not qualified to say anything I will indeed say; I am not a writer, nor a philosopher. I read books written by masters of their field, and I'm reminded how inadequate I am to retain the wisdom and knowledge that they offer. I often hit linguistic roadblocks, searching for a word in my detestably limited vocabulary that I know should fit, but can't recall. I often remember a theme, but not the author of it. I am a self-aware fool, a caricature of wisdom frantically searching for gimmicks to use as party tricks. I am an artist with my head firmly planted in the clouds, and eyes longingly gazing downward.

That being said, if I am to write, it is those whom I seek to follow that I will imitate most. I've been keeping a journal for a while now, and in it I decided to write exactly how I think; no matter the accessibility, contradictions, or disgraces of format. After all, I have been its only reader. So, if I am to dually imitate my own mind and my mentor's here, I have a chance of actually motivating myself to write. I know this means my audience will likely be small to none; the subjects I'll likely ponder through have much better sources than I to spend time reading. Nevertheless, I am incapable of simply writing conventional daily motivation, or thrilling tales of my life; I would quickly find myself abandoning yet another sinking ship in the shallow water of the blogosphere.

That's not to say I can guarantee that I won't jump ship anyway. The fear of writing about what my mind wrestles with is how its perceived. I, by trade, can't romp around spouting anything I want. I am employed by a Christian organization, and in all ways that matter (to me) this doesn't conflict with my thoughts. However, its not a stretch to say I'm hardly conventional in my theology, probably less so than most that know me even realize. All this to say, if I find myself having to tread too carefully, I'll retreat back to my journal where my words are kept for me alone. I wouldn't last long with a shock collar.

With all that said, this first post ends up saying nothing; a disclaimer to currently empty pages that may or may not fill.